You are another thing that I am constantly seeking. I always feel like I can't find you when I need you. I regularly feel like I am not brave and that I am weak.
However, a friend of mine suggested that I'm pretty brave when I need to be. I spent many years in a thankless, dead-end job. It took me a while to get out of there and I beat myself up for not leaving sooner. She said that I was very courageous because I was adult enough about the whole situation to realize I had to stay there so I could pay my bills.
I have come to see that sometimes, Dear Courage, you are there and I don't even know it. I love the phrase that sometimes Courage means saying I will try again tomorrow.
So, Dear Courage, I will try again tomorrow to not search so much for you, to have faith that you are already there.