As many people may know, I have been very busy lately. I already work a 40 hour week at a job that I don't particularly find inspiring. I spend about three to five hours every week working on my Belly Dancing. I recently started the Yoga Teacher Training. It is a 200 hour course over 10 weeks, so essentially I am spending 20 hours a week working on the yoga stuff. It's like a part time job. Add on top of that the usual stuff of wanting to spend time with my husband and family, and I am getting run down.
I am having to re-evaluate most things, including work. My PTO bank is extremely high because I never take time off. Even when I am sick, I work. I constantly feel like I am letting someone down in my life, because I aim to make everyone else happy.
With this YTT, I am learning that I need to take care of myself, and some people will just have to deal with it. I need to learn that what other people think of me doesn't really matter. I know I am smart and a hard worker, and if taking a few days off from work makes me look like less of a hard worker, that's not my problem. We have PTO for a reason, and I should be able to use it.
This past Monday I came into work and requested two days off in the beginning of the week next week, knowing that I am getting tired. I waited too long, and now I am sick again. I very rarely get sick, so I know this is related to stress, and most of it is job stress.
So I am going to take my two days, despite issues that are coming up and meetings that I should attend. My co-workers can handle it without me, and notify me of any changes when I return.
It's time I put myself first, even if that seems "selfish" to others.